I'm a big believer of balance in life (pleasure verses pain, work/life balance, happiness verses sadness, right verses wrong, karma, getting what you deserve in the end, etc.)
My body believes in balance too. I exercise, I want to eat more. I drink too much, I go to sleep. I laugh too much, I end up crying.
As for Karma, look at this example:
I may have called in sick to work once when I wasn't really sick...just once...I swear!! (Come on, everybody does it!!!! No judging!) Anyway, I used an excuse that something I ate made me sick. Then, a few months later, I really did get food poisoning...and I was sick FOR A WEEK! A LONG week. I knew that the universe was getting me back for lying. :)
Anyways, the point of all of the above is to preface my theory about balance in the big picture of my life. There are two large parts of my life: (1) my relationship with Josh and my family and (2) my career. I don't believe that both parts of my life can be perfect at the same time. Right now, I have a wonderful relationship with my husband and family...but a terrible career life. However, if I had to choose, I would much rather have a wonderful relationship with my husband and family and have a rough time in my career than have a great career and no one to love and who loves me.
But really, I've always had a tough "career life." I remember when I was 16, my mom drove me around to probably around 30 different retail establishments to apply for jobs. I only got one interview and I didn't get the job. I eventually got hired on at the "un-named attraction" I've mentioned before. And there I stayed for 8 years. I did have a few other part time jobs in Athens when I was in college*, but I always ended up back at the "un-named attraction." It was like I was meant to be there. (And I do have to say, I was REALLY good at my longest job at the un-named attraction. I was the best southern belle ever. I have STELLAR customer service skills.) Anyway, after I was promoted a couple of times, ended up at the corporate office, and then laid off I thought, "Wow-this is really sad. The only company that ever hired me finally got rid of me! Who is going to hire me now?!"
Some times I think I'm not meant to work:
(Thanks for sending this pic, Robin!)
Hehe. But seriously, maybe God has a different plan. Maybe I'm just meant to be a good wife, friend, and (someday) mother. I'm trying to trust God fully and no worry so much. I have my interview on Friday (the interview for the job I'm already doing) and I really am trying to just put all of my trust in God. I'm trying to let his will be and know that he does everything for my good. I've also prepared myself for both outcomes. If I get the job, I'm ready to discuss salary, goals, and plan out the next few years. If I don't get the job, I will apply for unemployment, get aggressive again with my job search, and enjoy the nice weather (I plan on getting a nice tan if I don't get this job!)
The only thing that bothers me is the more I keep finding out about the other candidate they are interviewing. (She interviewed last week, and my boss though she had “potential” so she is coming back this Friday for a second interview.) She's young, but has more experience than me as an assistant. Her resume says she graduated in '08 (that's 2 years later than I graduated) but it also says she "funded her college education with full time employment over the years." Well, good for her, but I also worked all through college and I worked AT THIS COMPANY! Anyway, I don't appreciate that my main competition is someone who is younger than me, doesn't have a masters degree, and definitely doesn't have any experience in this industry or with this company. She worked at a bank and at an apartment complex. At least the other lady they interviewed had years of experience in the creative industry. I would be less mad about all of this if my opponent was better qualified. But this is a good thing-I'm obviously the better candidate for the position. So be thinking about me at 9am this Friday-I can't wait to get the interview over with! I hope they tell me that day if I am getting the job or not. I just want all of this to be over and done with!
Hopefully I will get the job!
-Holly
*I worked as a waitress at a family owned Christian coffee shop (a job I would have liked better if we weren't required to donate all of our tips to charity-I made some good tips I would have liked to have kept!), a doggie daycare (it was a shitty job-literally-there was too much dog poop involved), and a cashier at Rich's in the jewelry department (I worked the Christmas holiday rush-not fun!).